And today, what made me post an entry here today, is because of my special friend:

My special friend do this fanart request of me x Sano back in 2005. I am very happy because she's very excited in doing this for me. T_T I have not done any fanart for her yet, so I must start doing some right after this.
Her nickname is SHIRONU / SHIRO INU / SHIRO. Her real name is SHARON YAP SHU WEN. Her DA account is:
http://shironu.deviantart.com/. You can still access it and leave any last messages if you so happen to know her, or just wanted to wish some condolences.
She just passed away this Chinese New Year 2008 due to her cancer which spreads to her lungs and stomach. She is still young for I believed that she just completed her SPM (Form 5 fnal examination) and highschool.
She was a very cheerful/genki cute lovely and funny gal. Her bright aura really cannot make you tell that she actually covers up the pain she suffers. It is truly amazing that a girl who is so hyper, carefree, always smiling or laughing and teasing could be so brave in her illness and passing away very quietly. Her brother was the one who spread the news about her passing, and even invited everyone who knows her to attend her funeral, and later on he and the family will plan a special memorial day for her after CNY.
I am disappointed at myself for only knowing this news last minute, therefore, I MUST attend her memorial day. I am already planning to make and bring things for her on that day. I am also very sad because it's been a looooong while since I contacted or see her. It hurts me that I cannot have the chance to send her any messages or see her one last time before she goes. Some friend I am. But I know that although not many of her friends know that she suddenly went away for heaven, she has a pure heart that still keeps and cherish her friendships and will not blame us for not being there for her for the last time.
Dearest Shironu, I am so sorry, I am not sure if you can even read any of my messages to you now, but I hope somehow up above in heaven you can, and and...THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR BEING MY FRIEND. I miss you very much, I LOVE YOU TOO YOU KNOW!! T__T I hope in the future, I can include some dedication for you in my future project. I hope it can make you proud and happy.
At the meantime, I have a part of translation lyrics I come up myself for the SIAM SHADE's RAIN song that I would love to give tribute to you! There's English, Malay versions and even the original Japanese lyrics. Here goes:
ENGLISH VERSION
One day I was standing under the rain,
shameless soaking pain,
unbothered to use umbrella,
being like in some stylish drama;
It begins to washed away everything,
your fragnance, even the sweet memories of you,
It makes my eyes moist with tears too;
SHINING.
The illumination that paints the evening sky,
is being struck by cold rain tonight,
The good-bye that you left me,
is aching now in my heart,
It hurts me extremely deep;
Now I come to think of it,
Thinking of the moves you made,
Your smile has given me the light countless times,
Though now it's far away,
Things can never be the same,
I still feel the joy of being able to meet you,
May God bless your sweet soul,
IN THE RAIN MY LOVE FOR YOU GROWS;
HEY, DON'T YOU KNOW?
MALAY VERSION
Suatu hari aku berdiri,
di bawah hujan,
tidak ingin peduli,
seiras drama dalam TV;
Membasahkan segalanya,
semua memori wangi tentang anda,
mataku menjadi pudar;
SHINING.
Illuminasi cantik mewarnakan langit,
dikabuskan oleh hujan dingin,
selamat tinggal buat selama-lamanya,
hatiku sangat terseksa;
Kini sedang memikirkan,
fikir tentang kebaikan,
Senyuman anda memberi berbilangan cahaya,
Tetapi sayangnya,
tidak boleh mengantinya,
Aku bersyukur kepada tuhan,
gembira mengenali anda,
IN THE RAIN MY LOVE FOR YOU GROWS;
HEY, DON'T YOU KNOW?
ORIGINAL LYRICS:
KANJI
どしゃぶりの雨の中で傘もささずに佇んでいる シャレたドラマの様に
すべてを洗い流して 君の香りも記憶さえもうるんだ瞳も
SHINING 夜を色どる ILLUMINATION 冷たい雨に打たれ
君が残したサヨナラがこの胸にしみる
このごろ思うよ 君の微笑みは
数知れない時に 光りをくれた
今はもう遠く 戻れないけれど
あなたに出会えた喜びは今も感じているよ
IN THE RAIN MY LOVE FOR YOU GROWS
HEY, DON'T YOU KNOW?
ROMANJI
Doshaburi no ame no naka de kasa mo sasazu ni tatazundeiru shareta dorama no you ni
Subete wo arainagashite kimi no kaori mo kioku sae mo urunda hitomi mo
SHINING Yoru wo irodoru ILLUMINATION tsumetai ame ni utare
Kimi ga nokoshita sayonara ga kono mune ni shimiru
Konogoro omou yo kimi no hohoemi wa
Kazushirenai toki ni hikari wo kureta
Ima wa mou tooku modorenai keredo
Anata ni deaeta yorokobi wa ima mo kanjiteiru yo
IN THE RAIN MY LOVE FOR YOU GROWS
HEY, DON'T YOU KNOW?
translated lyrics versions © Anna Sagara[相楽エンナ] | original lyrics & song creation © SIAM SHADE (lyrics: HIDEKI, music: DAITA)
This is the only thing I can tribute for you, I will make sure I have more for you for your memorial day!
I shall always remember you, the memories we had back in the old days, the first time you cosplayed and the time we met at conventions or hung out together in a cosplay group. As for now, rest in peace, may god bless you and your family. I wonder if you can meet with my R.I.P kitty named Raja above in heaven? Forever you'll be in my heart, my dear friend.
XXOO,
Anna Sagara *unbeareable emotions*
PS. sorry I don't feel like LJ-cutting, and this entry is open for public. peace.
PSS. I will collect all the messages anyone made for her, to be used for my tribute thingie that I will make for her memorial day. thanks to all who have left any messages for her in advance. and those who will be attending her memorial...let me know? thanks. much appreciated.